I'm not sure I slept much that night, having trouble believing that a pregnancy with no problems ended with the death of my baby. It would be more than four years before we had any idea of why we lost Micah, and even now the 'cause' is still very broad.
Through my pain over losing Micah I have learned a ton, about myself, my husband, and my Lord. I have had the unique opportunity to hold friends hands when they are grieving a lost child/baby. And the opportunity to pray for others who have walked in my shoes. It's not something I would ever want someone else to experience, but looking back it has been a thread in who I am today, as a mother, wife, and friend.
Because of my loss I try to look on my living children differently. Knowing that they are not mine but the Lords. I have two amazing blessings!
So today I want to say,
Micah, you will always be a part of me. I love you and can't wait to hold you again in heaven. Thank you for being part of my life!
Love, Mommy
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