35 1/2 weeks
When we lost Micah I felt like my heart had been ripped out. I didn't understand why this had happened, I would have been a good mother and Brandon would have been a good daddy. The pregnancy was healthy and normal. Micah was fine on Friday when we went in for a stress test, by Sunday we had lost him. We had taken the class about birth, we had taken baby/child CPR, and the breast feeding class. We were ready to bring home a baby. We left the hospital with no car seat in the back and our hearts full of grief.
36 1/2 weeks
My whole pregnancy was stressful but Eli did great. At 36 weeks we did an amino to see if his lungs were ready to deliver and scheduled a delivery the next Monday. What a wonderful feeling it was to leave the hospital this time with a car seat in the back with our little baby and our hearts full of love.
7 weeks
When our 3rd pregnancy ended at 7 weeks we were upset but we knew there was a reason. We could rest in our Lords love.
13 weeks
We waited until after the first sono, where we saw the baby and heard the heart beat, and our 2nd doctors appointment to tell family and friends. The sono showed everything was going well and my blood work came back normal after our doctors appointment. We had no idea that at 13 weeks we would start bleeding and be told we had lost this baby. I felt safe because we were out of the first trimester and doing great. I think on Tuesday I was in shock, then we spent Wednesday in the ER, today I am realizing we really lost this baby. It makes my heart hurt, a different hurt than Micah but still hurt. I know that there is a reason behind this and that the Lord will hold us.
Thank you for all your prayers and support.
Friday, February 26, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Thursday
Today I woke up with some mild to not so mild cramping but nothing a little Tylenol wouldn't fix. After sitting around watching Eli play we headed to his 15 month well child visit. When we arrived I had to wait behind two other parents to sign in, normally not a problem...
But standing today was not a good idea for me. I checked us in then ask where the "grown up" bathroom was. Luckily before heading out I thought to grab some extra hygiene products. So while Eli played in the restroom (lovely) I took care of myself then headed back out to wait for them to call us back to a room.
By the time we were called back (maybe 15 min.) I knew I was in trouble. We got to the room and I started answering all the normal questions and telling the nurse my questions. I striped Eli and we headed to get his weight and height, but I did not make it. Handing my diapered only child to the nurse I ran for the bathroom.
To late, blood was already down to my shoes. I was told to expect a little more blood than last time due the fact that I was farther along but this much?? After cleaning my self up as best I could and tying my jacket around my waist I went to join the nurse and Eli. (I did have to find some one to clean the bathroom, I tried but it needed more help.)
I did OK for the measurements and headed back to the room to await the doctor. A few minutes later I was running back down the hall, threw Eli at the nurse, and into the bathroom. Once again, blood down to my shoes (which at this point are trash). Once again, I had to tell the nurse that the bathroom needed help.
After this I lost it, I told the nurse we were leaving and called Brandon to meet us at home. Everyone was wonderful, the nurse dressed Eli, the office manager gave me towels for my car, the receptionist waved off the co-pay (they'll bill me), and the doctor checked to see if we wanted an ambulance. Over all they were wonderful.
I called my OB on the way home and was told to head to the ER. Who do I call for Eli, I can't keep him in an ER room for hours?? I have lots of people I can call but I needed someone close so we could get to the ER ASAP.
Aunt Lauren to the rescue!! I called and she was on the way. Eli had a great time hanging out with Aunt Lauren and mommy and daddy did not have to worry about him while at the ER.
We arrived at the ER at 11:50, went back to triage at 11:55, saw the doctor in triage at 12:30 and then headed back to start test and an exam.
After blood work, a pelvic exam (the doctor help clean my uterus out), and a sono we headed to our last room to await results.
The results were in and we did not need a D/C. We only had a little bit of debris left in my uterus (after the doctor finished) and that should pass naturally. We were sent home with instructions to call my OB or a follow up appointment.
But standing today was not a good idea for me. I checked us in then ask where the "grown up" bathroom was. Luckily before heading out I thought to grab some extra hygiene products. So while Eli played in the restroom (lovely) I took care of myself then headed back out to wait for them to call us back to a room.
By the time we were called back (maybe 15 min.) I knew I was in trouble. We got to the room and I started answering all the normal questions and telling the nurse my questions. I striped Eli and we headed to get his weight and height, but I did not make it. Handing my diapered only child to the nurse I ran for the bathroom.
To late, blood was already down to my shoes. I was told to expect a little more blood than last time due the fact that I was farther along but this much?? After cleaning my self up as best I could and tying my jacket around my waist I went to join the nurse and Eli. (I did have to find some one to clean the bathroom, I tried but it needed more help.)
I did OK for the measurements and headed back to the room to await the doctor. A few minutes later I was running back down the hall, threw Eli at the nurse, and into the bathroom. Once again, blood down to my shoes (which at this point are trash). Once again, I had to tell the nurse that the bathroom needed help.
After this I lost it, I told the nurse we were leaving and called Brandon to meet us at home. Everyone was wonderful, the nurse dressed Eli, the office manager gave me towels for my car, the receptionist waved off the co-pay (they'll bill me), and the doctor checked to see if we wanted an ambulance. Over all they were wonderful.
I called my OB on the way home and was told to head to the ER. Who do I call for Eli, I can't keep him in an ER room for hours?? I have lots of people I can call but I needed someone close so we could get to the ER ASAP.
Aunt Lauren to the rescue!! I called and she was on the way. Eli had a great time hanging out with Aunt Lauren and mommy and daddy did not have to worry about him while at the ER.
We arrived at the ER at 11:50, went back to triage at 11:55, saw the doctor in triage at 12:30 and then headed back to start test and an exam.
After blood work, a pelvic exam (the doctor help clean my uterus out), and a sono we headed to our last room to await results.
The results were in and we did not need a D/C. We only had a little bit of debris left in my uterus (after the doctor finished) and that should pass naturally. We were sent home with instructions to call my OB or a follow up appointment.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Out of the Hall of Fame
After posting last night about the new baby I already have an update....
We are now out of the Hall of Fame, batting 250.
I started bleeding last night right before bed, so we called the doctor this morning.
Of course the office where my doctor works did not have a sono tech today so we had to go to the other office and see a doctor we have never meet. He was great and tried to answer all our questions.
We had the sono first and did not get good news. We had lost this baby. After that we talked with the doctor about the next step. We have three options:
A. Natural Miscarriage
B. D/C (out patient surgery)
C. Mediation to make me miscarry
We went with A. Since we are already bleeding we want to try for the natural. If that is not working we will go with C, then B if necessary.
We talked to the doctor about having two miscarriages in a row, did we do this to our selves because we got pregnant so fast? He said that after a miscarriage it brings your chance of another from 25% to 30% but there is no way to know for sure.
So that is our update.
We are now out of the Hall of Fame, batting 250.
I started bleeding last night right before bed, so we called the doctor this morning.
Of course the office where my doctor works did not have a sono tech today so we had to go to the other office and see a doctor we have never meet. He was great and tried to answer all our questions.
We had the sono first and did not get good news. We had lost this baby. After that we talked with the doctor about the next step. We have three options:
A. Natural Miscarriage
B. D/C (out patient surgery)
C. Mediation to make me miscarry
We went with A. Since we are already bleeding we want to try for the natural. If that is not working we will go with C, then B if necessary.
We talked to the doctor about having two miscarriages in a row, did we do this to our selves because we got pregnant so fast? He said that after a miscarriage it brings your chance of another from 25% to 30% but there is no way to know for sure.
So that is our update.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Going for 500...
In an earlier post I wrote about how my sweet husband reminded me that in baseball you can make it into the Hall of Fame if you bat a 333. We were batting that on pregnancies. Now we are going for 500.
That's right we are pregnant! We are due September 1st, so I am thinking an August baby? We are very excited and know that the Lord has this baby in His hands already, things will work out just as He wants them to.
If you were able to watch the video of Eli talking he announced it, but some have had a hard time with the video.
That's right we are pregnant! We are due September 1st, so I am thinking an August baby? We are very excited and know that the Lord has this baby in His hands already, things will work out just as He wants them to.
If you were able to watch the video of Eli talking he announced it, but some have had a hard time with the video.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Wedding Season
The Bride, Amanda, and ME
We have had a few wedding seasons, normally followed by baby season a few years later. We are now in the middle of a wedding season and a baby season!! We had our first of 5 weddings this past weekend in Austin. We had a great time enjoying family and friends. The bride is a good friend of mine from Chickasha that now lives in Dallas. Her mom and dad have been friends with my parents since before they were married and moved to Chickasha (small world).
The groom loves live music and plays in a band, so at the rehearsal dinner there was a live band! They rented out the SpeakEasy, a bar in Austin, for the rehearsal dinner and music. We had a great time getting to know the grooms family and listening to live music!
Saturday morning we had a Bridal Brunch at TRIO in the Four Seasons Hotel. We had a great time talking and laughing about things the bride did when she was little! After the brunch we headed upstairs to start make-up, were we had our make-up air brushed on! We had our hair done and before we knew it, it was time to head to the church!
The wedding was at Saint Mary Cathedral in down town Austin. The Cathedral is over a hundred years old (built in last 1880s I think). It has been restored in the past few years and is beautiful. I did not get any pictures of it since there is no flash photography and I did not take my camera to the rehearsal (I forgot)! The wedding went off without any problems and Leon and Amanda headed to the Reception in a horse drown carriage!
The reception was at the Four Seasons Hotel, were we stayed. It was wonderful with great food and a 10 piece band to dance along to! The cake was great, the grooms cake was in the shape of a guitar and the brides cake was a four layer raspberry filled delight!! Brandon and I enjoyed dancing to all those old high school and college songs, you know the ones you still know the words to! The groom, bride, and a few friends preformed for all with the dance to thriller. I made it until 12:45 before I had to head to bed!!
Thank you to the Lau and Toye for a wonderful weekend!!
Friday, February 12, 2010
SNOW, SNOW, and MORE SNOW!!!
We received almost 12 inches of Snow last week!! I have seen snow like this in Oklahoma, but never down here (although I have only lived here 12 years). Brandon had never seen snow like this and he has been here 29 years!! The weather man said it would snow and snow it did!! They are also saying it was a record for a 24 hour period. Eli sat at the window and watched the snow come down all day on Thursday. So, Friday I thought it would be nice for him to see the snow up close. When I told him he could go outside if he kept his hat on he did not touch it (he normally has it off before I can pick him up). This proves he understands what I say, and can follow directions if he wants!! Since he has no gloves I put socks on his hands. Here are a few pics. Aunt Amy took more of him playing with Georgia that I will have to post later!
Not sure about the cold snow.
Enjoying playing in the snow but not wanting to go out in the snow!
Checking it out, should I face plant or stay here and dry??
A pic of the back yard. The trees in the middle have fallen over from the weight of the snow!
Eli eating snow, the first thing he did was pick it up and eat it!
Not sure about the cold snow.
Enjoying playing in the snow but not wanting to go out in the snow!
Checking it out, should I face plant or stay here and dry??
A pic of the back yard. The trees in the middle have fallen over from the weight of the snow!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
Super Bowl
Amy Curry and I like to pose our boys for future black-mailing!
Here is our most recent picture!
Look below to compare last years Super Bowl pic!
Super Bowl 2010
(a little over 14 months)
Super Bowl 2009(a little over 2 months)
Pictures of Eli
Eli having a great time playing ball.
Blake, Jackson, and Eli playing. Trying to get them to stay still for a picture was a bit hard!
Eli saying Hi!
Eli likes to climb on his climber and play pick-a-boo.
Eli's surgery did not slow him down at all!! 
Eli and Georgia playing the the tuber ware cabinet at Georgia's house. 
Eli and his smile!!
Another great smile.
My little climber! I had to take the chairs away so he could not use them to get on top of the table.
Look at me WALKING!!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
A blog from Eli
I'm 14 months old now and wanted to share with the world!
I had a good month. I started walking on January 10th with the help of Grammy. I soon was walking all over the house. Mommy likes that she can put me down, but I have decided to only walk were I want to, not were mommy wants me to. I have added a few words to my vocabulary, dada (when he comes home!), ball (I say dall), and thank you (tank-tank). I do say mama some but only when I want someone to pick me up.
I have had two great friends over at my house almost everyday this month. Mommy is keeping them in the morning and afternoon. I love playing with Jackson (11 month) and Blake (3 yrs). I am learning to share more because of them. Blake taught me to climb on my climber that Mimi got me for my birthday!
I had surgery the week I turned 14 months to fix my finger. Mommy thought it would slow me down but it has not. I have decided to stop sleeping at night, or at least in the middle of the night! Mommy does not find this funny but I am real good at crying, I have learned to hit very high octaves that can be heard through two shut doors!
My favorite toy is a ball. I have small ones and some bigger ones. I love to throw the ball and then chase after it. Daddy even let me play with his big boy football. It is a little to big to hold in one hand but I can pick it up if I use my face and splinted arm. I have also learned to ride my lion, the push toy my Grandma Liz got me. Daddy made it into a riding lion and I love to sit on it and play the music.
I saw my first snow! I did not like being out in it even in daddy's arms, but it was fun to look at through Mimi's back door. Mimi gave me some to hold but I didn't like that either. I guess I take after my mommy and don't like to be cold.
I have started feeding my self at almost every meal. Mommy still likes to feed me oatmeal in the mornings and I let her. I will let you feed me the food off your plate also. I like to eat noddles (any kind), veggies, and bread.
I love to play with my cousins. I am sad that Bryce, Laura, and Benjamin moved to Tulsa, but know I will still see them at Grammy and Papa's house. Mommy also said we could go see them soon. Georgia and I play together great. She shares with me and I try to share with her. I don't like all the dolls she carries so I throw them on the floor but Mommy says "No". Georgia always gives wonderful hugs and kisses.
I have had to go to time out a few times but not often and I normally don't repeat my actions. Mommy has to sit with her back to me to get me to stay but she does not talk to me for a whole minute! The only good thing about it is that I get hugs and kisses after I get up.
I think that is about all I have on the last month of my life. It has been exciting with lots of new things, but I am moving on now.... Who knows what I'll learn to do this month!!
Love, Eli
Mommy said she will post pictures soon!!
I had a good month. I started walking on January 10th with the help of Grammy. I soon was walking all over the house. Mommy likes that she can put me down, but I have decided to only walk were I want to, not were mommy wants me to. I have added a few words to my vocabulary, dada (when he comes home!), ball (I say dall), and thank you (tank-tank). I do say mama some but only when I want someone to pick me up.
I have had two great friends over at my house almost everyday this month. Mommy is keeping them in the morning and afternoon. I love playing with Jackson (11 month) and Blake (3 yrs). I am learning to share more because of them. Blake taught me to climb on my climber that Mimi got me for my birthday!
I had surgery the week I turned 14 months to fix my finger. Mommy thought it would slow me down but it has not. I have decided to stop sleeping at night, or at least in the middle of the night! Mommy does not find this funny but I am real good at crying, I have learned to hit very high octaves that can be heard through two shut doors!
My favorite toy is a ball. I have small ones and some bigger ones. I love to throw the ball and then chase after it. Daddy even let me play with his big boy football. It is a little to big to hold in one hand but I can pick it up if I use my face and splinted arm. I have also learned to ride my lion, the push toy my Grandma Liz got me. Daddy made it into a riding lion and I love to sit on it and play the music.
I saw my first snow! I did not like being out in it even in daddy's arms, but it was fun to look at through Mimi's back door. Mimi gave me some to hold but I didn't like that either. I guess I take after my mommy and don't like to be cold.
I have started feeding my self at almost every meal. Mommy still likes to feed me oatmeal in the mornings and I let her. I will let you feed me the food off your plate also. I like to eat noddles (any kind), veggies, and bread.
I love to play with my cousins. I am sad that Bryce, Laura, and Benjamin moved to Tulsa, but know I will still see them at Grammy and Papa's house. Mommy also said we could go see them soon. Georgia and I play together great. She shares with me and I try to share with her. I don't like all the dolls she carries so I throw them on the floor but Mommy says "No". Georgia always gives wonderful hugs and kisses.
I have had to go to time out a few times but not often and I normally don't repeat my actions. Mommy has to sit with her back to me to get me to stay but she does not talk to me for a whole minute! The only good thing about it is that I get hugs and kisses after I get up.
I think that is about all I have on the last month of my life. It has been exciting with lots of new things, but I am moving on now.... Who knows what I'll learn to do this month!!
Love, Eli
Mommy said she will post pictures soon!!
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