Weeks Matter

35 1/2 weeks
When we lost Micah I felt like my heart had been ripped out. I didn't understand why this had happened, I would have been a good mother and Brandon would have been a good daddy. The pregnancy was healthy and normal. Micah was fine on Friday when we went in for a stress test, by Sunday we had lost him. We had taken the class about birth, we had taken baby/child CPR, and the breast feeding class. We were ready to bring home a baby. We left the hospital with no car seat in the back and our hearts full of grief.

36 1/2 weeks
My whole pregnancy was stressful but Eli did great. At 36 weeks we did an amino to see if his lungs were ready to deliver and scheduled a delivery the next Monday. What a wonderful feeling it was to leave the hospital this time with a car seat in the back with our little baby and our hearts full of love.

7 weeks
When our 3rd pregnancy ended at 7 weeks we were upset but we knew there was a reason. We could rest in our Lords love.

13 weeks
We waited until after the first sono, where we saw the baby and heard the heart beat, and our 2nd doctors appointment to tell family and friends. The sono showed everything was going well and my blood work came back normal after our doctors appointment. We had no idea that at 13 weeks we would start bleeding and be told we had lost this baby. I felt safe because we were out of the first trimester and doing great. I think on Tuesday I was in shock, then we spent Wednesday in the ER, today I am realizing we really lost this baby. It makes my heart hurt, a different hurt than Micah but still hurt. I know that there is a reason behind this and that the Lord will hold us.


Thank you for all your prayers and support.